I was born a biological female, so I was raised and socialized as a female.
Starting in my college years, I believed that I was nonbinary after someone I knew came out as trans. I was also believing that my Autistic sensory issues with shaving, my Autism-related difficulties with social norms, and my teenage rebelliousness/dislike of the double standard that is traditional gender roles caused me to at the time genuinely believe that I was a different gender. This belief lasted for several years until now that I’m in my early thirties.
I changed my pronouns over the years from she/her to they/them, then to purr/purrs, then to she/they, then to she/they/ey, back to they/them, back to she/they then tried out leaf/leafs, back to just she/they, and finally back to she/her. This was tiring.
I changed my name from Megan to Sage. I started out only changing my name socially and then finally got my name legally changed to Sage when I was 25. I am still very happy with this! 🥰
I changed my gender label a lot over the years from nonbinary, then to genderqueer, then to demiflux, then to girlflux, then to nonbinary/demiflux/androgynous, then to just genderqueer or nonbinary, then to a few others I’m blanking on the labels for, back to nonbinary, then back to girlflux, until finally back to woman. This was very tiring.
I never wanted to physically/medically change my body ever and I never experienced gender dysphoria at all, yet I was told that I can still be trans or nonbinary and not have gender dysphoria (which made no sense to me, but I am not confrontational so I didn’t feel comfortable saying so). I am immensely grateful that I never physically/medically changed my body because if I had done so I would be miserable!
During my childhood, I never gave any indication that my gender was different from my biological sex, so me coming out as nonbinary confused my family. They were still supportive during my gender journey, knowing that I would eventually realize for myself that I am and always will be a biological woman. They were right!
When I was identifying as nonbinary and being a man-hating feminist along with being on hormonal birth control made me an angrier person which I hated and I’m sure was difficult for my friends and family to deal with! Since getting off the hormonal birth control and it leaving my system after a couple of years (I got sterilized when I was 25 because I never want children and had heavy menses), no longer being a feminist (though I do agree with equality, I no longer hate men), and realizing that I am not nonbinary, I have been much happier, patient with others, no longer confused or stressing about who I am, and no longer angry all the time!
I am a biological woman/desister female and I am happy with that!
